My beautiful girl

My gorgeous babe

I look at you and wonder

you make me wonder

ask myself what I did right

you were so small

I so young

I couldn’t give you up even when he asked me too

you were growing beautifully in my young body and I felt your presence

No I would say

Do what you want

he was immature

23 and loved the nights delights

our love didn’t last

gone within your second year

so two we were

you made me realise that I had to be strong

independent woman

i didn’t need a man

i was young

i had ambition I had you

we could love and grow and thrive why not

today as I look across the room

you make me cry

beautiful woman

heart of gold full of compassion and love

did I create you

I love you

I look forward to watching your grow

 

You tried to change didn’t you?
closed your mouth more
tried to be softer
prettier
less volatile, less awake
but even when sleeping you could feel
him travelling away from you in his dreams
so what did you want to do love
split his head open?
you can’t make homes out of human beings
someone should have already told you that
and if he wants to leave
then let him leave
you are terrifying
and strange and beautiful
something not everyone knows how to love.
Warsan Shire

 

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